Waiting, Waiting, Waiting.

Do you ever feel like you're just constantly waiting for something to happen or something to be over? Well, It crossed my mind the other day that that is all that I do. I'm busy, that's a fact. I work, teach, I'm a youth leader, worship leader, I write songs, and in a couple months I'll be in school again. But more often than not I catch myself thinking, "ok, get through this week. Then things will be easier. ok, graduate and things will get easier. ok, find a boyfriend and things will get easier." I'm just constantly waiting for the "now" to be over so I can get to the future. I'm impatient. I want to control my life, but it seems as though that's impossible unless I also control the space-time continuum.

I don't want to do that anymore. I want to see each day as a gift. I want everything I do to count for NOW instead of thinking what it will effect for the future. I want to make an impact, and I can't do that unless I stop waiting for things. I've gotta man-up and do what I've gotta do. It's life. It happens. I need to stop being lazy.

That's all I've to say; just something that was on my mind.

Vacation Bible School for Adults

Is there anything in the title "Vacation Bible School" that says anything about it only being for little kids? Absolutely not. This past week we did VBS at church and I lead the song time. Not only did I get to reach kids through what I know best, but as I was on stage I got to see them all worshiping; that is the part that I loved most. Yes, singing is cool, playing guitar is fun and all that good stuff, but actually seeing all 46 kids dancing and worshiping their Savior was breathtaking.
VBS is not only for kids. The youth group kids were the crew leaders. They took small groups of kids to each station and talked to them and got to know them. VBS is for teens. They got to see that these kids have the faith of a child (duh) and how easy it can be for them to have that too. It was so cool to see how the connected and were able to teach them about Christ and how to be able to get to heaven. It was awesome.
VBS is not only for kids and teens. I know that my patience was tested with some of the little rascals. I am not good with kids, nor have I ever been. This is intensified when I have not slept for a few days. I'm not a happy camper for a good chunk of the time. But God used me, and gave me strength to handle problems without biting anyone's head off. I feel that as the kids grew in knowledge and the teens grew in faith, I also grew in patience and understanding.
VBS is for anyone. If your church does VBS, get involved. If they don't, see about maybe starting one up. It's one of the most rewarding experiences because you are instrumental in the salvation of so many children.
That is all I have to say.

Slow down everyone, you're moving too fast...

Sometimes I wish I could cut down on all the stuff I do. I love being a youth leader and teacher. It combines my passion for teaching with helping people. I love leading worship. Music is my medium and God is my life, so I love putting them together. I love my new job. I get to meet new and exciting people and share their life stories. I love every role I have in life. I'm just... overwhelmed.

I have been on summer break for about a month. And when I drove out of the parking lot on the last day of school all that went through my head was "*sigh* now life can slow down and I'll be able to breathe." No such luck. I haven't written a song in over a month. I haven't played my guitar just for fun until yesterday. I haven't caught up with old friends like I thought I would be able to do. And as much as it kills me to say it, I haven't grown closer to God. I've actually grown farther away from Him. And even though time isn't the main component to that, it certainly plays a role. 

I think humans have this need to be constantly moving. Like, if we don't move enough or fast enough we might miss out on something. Like, life is too short to slow down and enjoy anything. I agree wholeheartedly that life is indeed short. But sometimes it's for that very reason that we should slow down and watch life. I don't remember the last time I just looked at the stars. Ok, that's kind of impossible in the city. How about this: I don't remember the last time I watched the sun set. That is possible in the city. It doesn't require any sort of energy besides marveling at God's creation. I want to do that. I want to be able to just stop. Stop and see God at work in jut how He paints the sky for me.

So, that's my random thought. I haven't written for a while and I just really wanted to share my thoughts on this. Try to slow down, or even stop sometime in the next few days, look at God, and be like, "God, You are amazing. Thanks for being You." And then go about your busy day. It takes the edge of more than you'd think.